So last night I went to bed feeling soooo guilty about how impatient and grumpy I'd been with my kiddos. I even checked the calendar to see if I was approaching that lovely time of the month. Nope, I couldn't even use that as an explanation. I was just grouchy. Jack is sick(again!) and all he wanted all day was me and his Binky(which is supposed to stay in his bed). The kitchen was a mess and I had two baskets full of clean laundry getting more and more wrinkled by the second and the two kids were at each others' throats. Anyways, I felt so bad after checking on them before bed and there they were-perfect angels, and there I was feeling like a total b*%@#. After praying extra hard before bed I had a new desire to just be a good friend to them today. I kept thinking about the saying that goes something like: When we die are we going to wish we'd spent more time at work or on cleaning the house or doing laundry? Not likely. But we certainly might wish we'd spent more time just playing with the kids. So today I have really just been trying to do whatever the kids want to do. Jack just wanted to sit on my lap and suck on that nasty Binky of his a lot of the morning but oh well, he was happy and that made me happy too. Campbell and I played with her little animals when Jack went down and honestly I almost fell asleep as I was being the mommy elephant but she loved it and that's what today was supposed to be about. I can say that Campbell and Jack have not teased, argued or tattled all day. I know everyday won't be this way but it has been nice. And no my laundry still isn't folded but maybe Jack will sleep a little longer so I can get that done too.
So what do you all do when you're grumpy and just need an "attitude adjustment"? What have been some of your good mom, wife, friend, teacher moments?
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”