“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
~Nelson Mandela

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

The grouchy mother blues

So last night I went to bed feeling soooo guilty about how impatient and grumpy I'd been with my kiddos. I even checked the calendar to see if I was approaching that lovely time of the month. Nope, I couldn't even use that as an explanation. I was just grouchy. Jack is sick(again!) and all he wanted all day was me and his Binky(which is supposed to stay in his bed). The kitchen was a mess and I had two baskets full of clean laundry getting more and more wrinkled by the second and the two kids were at each others' throats. Anyways, I felt so bad after checking on them before bed and there they were-perfect angels, and there I was feeling like a total b*%@#. After praying extra hard before bed I had a new desire to just be a good friend to them today. I kept thinking about the saying that goes something like: When we die are we going to wish we'd spent more time at work or on cleaning the house or doing laundry? Not likely. But we certainly might wish we'd spent more time just playing with the kids. So today I have really just been trying to do whatever the kids want to do. Jack just wanted to sit on my lap and suck on that nasty Binky of his a lot of the morning but oh well, he was happy and that made me happy too. Campbell and I played with her little animals when Jack went down and honestly I almost fell asleep as I was being the mommy elephant but she loved it and that's what today was supposed to be about. I can say that Campbell and Jack have not teased, argued or tattled all day. I know everyday won't be this way but it has been nice. And no my laundry still isn't folded but maybe Jack will sleep a little longer so I can get that done too.
So what do you all do when you're grumpy and just need an "attitude adjustment"? What have been some of your good mom, wife, friend, teacher moments?


angie b said...

Molly, you know you are not alone....I have those moments many more times than I like to admit. I think it is amazing as Mom's that our kids can drive us bonkers ALL day long some days and as soon as they fall asleep they look so innocent! That is what makes you a great mom Molly, is that fact that you recognize those moments and then take the next day to try to "undo" their memory of the day before. I have done it too many times and I find it funny because I have been edgy the past few days and my time of the month is no where in sight.
One more thing, as Kristi said in her post "A clean house is time misspent!" I have had to adjust to that with three kids. I find myself stressing about it more than I should. Do I really care that it a bit out of order? No, I just worry that other people will come over and think that it is a mess. Yep, I have got to get over that and I still find myself trying to keep it clean. So good for you for taking time with Jack and his binky and Campbell with her animals. I had to laugh because after meeting Campbell I can just imagine how cute her conversation would be with her little animals.
After living with you for so long too Molly, I would pay money just to see you as a grouch.
Have a great rest of the week. We are headed out to the funneral tomorrow morning.

Kristi said...

You are such a good mom. You brushed the cares of the world aside for your little ones. It sounds like they noticed and appreciated it too. They are lucky kids.

I hope you guys have safe travels to the funeral. I know these times are hard, but funerals can be joyous too if you think of it as celebrating your grandmother's life. Enjoy your time with your family, extended family, and friends.

meegz said...

Molly -- megan here!:) Are you kidding me?? Do any of us have "good mom days" (that we can remember?:)) Seriously though -- I have the solution.....Philip and I just got back from Cabo, MX. We were gone for 5 days without our kids -- the kids and us couldn't get enough of each other the day we got back...I went up to bed to find Philip and 3 kiddos asleep on our bed.:) SO-- it's as easy as that -- take a trip alone with Lee -- and they'll LOVE you when you get home and better yet -- you'll ENJOY it!:)

Seriously, I'm with Ang -- I didn't live with you -- but I"d pay money to see you grumpy -- come visit either of us on a bad day -- you'll see grumpy!:) Take care -- keep on smiling and praying -- cuz that's what we're all doin'!!

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